Pedro The Lion || The Longer I Lay Here
10 notesI want to die, I really, really want to finish everything. I have nothing or no one. I took off again, everything is going to complete shit. My mind is all scattered, nothing makes sense. Death has always looked so promising to me. I can’t handle my life.
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1 noteI don’t know why, but I keep thinking about that day when I got back home after running away. Before I went home we went to Downers Grove and we held hands through the parking lots. I’d pull your arm and you’d kiss me. I don’t know why this is so etched into my brain. I don’t think it meant as much to you. I don’t know what it means to me. Maybe I’m accepting that it’s done. It’s funny how all of this comes back to me around the time when we started getting to know each other. Every exit leads you somewhere new.
0 notesI’m ready to get myself situated again. Changing my number, getting my license, hopefully moving out by the end of August. It’s starting to come together. Everything’s changed from when I was seventeen, definitely prepared to make my nineteenth birthday a good one. The new people in my life have really got me focused on my future again, it’s pretty relieving.
0 noteshahahahaha I can’t even
0 notesI feel sick, really sick. I’m going to get my shit together and start over. You’re no good for me.
0 notesI feel like I’m really down right now. Things are not where they should be. I shouldn’t be where I am. It’s just like one boy lets me be happy all the time and is fun with me and the other boy isn’t like that at all. He’s really serious and unintentionally hurts my feelings all the time “/. But I really like the one that sounds sucky, which is kinda my dilemma. But I said I was moving on, and that it was done with him because of all the things he did. So I’m basically in a rut. A really shitty rut.
0 notesI don’t want to be with anyone, I don’t want to have feelings for anyone I just want to do my own thing and let everything fall into place on its own, why is this so difficult. Telling me you like me seems a little extreme to me, a tad unnecessary. Stop labeling feelings, I don’t want any of that, not now, not for a while. I just want someone to cuddle with whenever I want, who will take my phone calls at the most inconvenient of times and someone who won’t tell me they love me right away. Is that so much to ask for? Geez, and my ex texted me the other day saying “I broke up with my girlfriend two days ago” AWESOME… A+, would you like me to drive to Wisconsin and put a gold star on your front door? C’mon..seriously, GTFO, idgaf about you, or your ex girlfriend, or the new one you have now. Like really, wtf is this shit. Someone tell me cause this shit’s ridiculous in my opinion. I’m sick to my stomach.
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I went to see a fortune teller today and I found out a lot of interesting things. She told me my ex and I would get back together and that he’s going to be the father of my children. She said he is my soul mate and that I’d be married before 2013. She said I’m going to have a single birth and then a set of twins. She said my first child would come before 2015 and that I would be doing a lot of traveling around 2012. She told me I was a really good person and that I had a clear aura. I’m meant to help people and I’m going to be successful. My parents are going to get divorced, and my brother is going to get a girl pregnant. She told me I’m going to buy a new sports car and an apartment. She told me to stay away from my best friend Brian, and that I’m going to meet someone named Nick. l;ajdf;ajfl;ajf;a I don’t even know.
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